I tend to go for nerdy guys because they have no other competition and are desperate, I know I am a man because I think of them the same way straight guys think of Ramona flowers. However I don’t want to manipulate or change these nerd men unless they’re hateful in any sort of way. I think they should change that. I am truly a personality guy. I love nerds because they are always feeling and passionate, and pretty people never care.
I love how competitive they get too. I would love to go nerd for nerd with them but I never played dnd, I never made custom levels in geometry dash, I never made stop motion videos with stickbots, I never made flip note stick fights but MAN HOW I WANTED TO. My proud area was pencil and paper and that appeals to the mainstream. Even though someone wouldn’t know who I was drawing they would still go “woah, that’s really cool.” Those stickbot guys appealed to just their niche and that’s what I LOVED! They cared! They didn’t do something because they wanted everyone to love them, they did it because they and their little groups of friends thought it was cool. They cared. The only thing stoppping us from being friends was that we had nothing in common, but we were practically the same guy going through a different path.
To all the guys with jackets and hair in a way they do not like, to the guys who talk in a rather ‘intelligent’ manner, to the guys who believe they are ahead of their time, I knew you too well for someone I never spoke to. And I wanted you so bad, I wanted to walk your path and have your mannerisms and have your mind your personality your soul. I understood you, we just spoke a different language. I think about the guys like that who I knew in elementary school and how if I had been their friend I might have found out that I’m a guy much sooner, I would have not have been alone, I would have let all the things I was attached to go.